i don’t want to start blogging again like that but,
today was really shit.
no way else to describe it.
and after today, maybe i really see why i shouldn’t drop that sheet of paper in.
cause i always respected you as a leader
but what you did today made me lose every last drop of respect i have for you,
go love your ______ acjc anyway.
they’re always the better of us two,
and we’re ALWAYS the black sheep.
acjc this acjc that,
acjc is already ready! what about you guys!
you all have no discipline! when will you all grow up?
___ this shit.
i am resisting the urge to punctuate my sentences with expletives right here.
i think my tongue’s been extremely loose and hypocritical of my own values.
so, i’ll leave it as that.
i honestly can’t believe myself for always trying to ignore this tiny speck in my own eye,
but as diseases fester, they just get too damned big to be ignored.
and i’m not going to ignore it this time.
sometimes i wonder if i should have just grabbed that opportunity to leave.
and the pressure from the shit i’ve to do for IB is burying me alive,
IOP Essay, Physics, BandCamp, Japan Tour, AND EXAMS
whatever.
i feel like just giving up.
for the people i flared up in front of, i sincerely apologize.
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maybe that’s why i’ve been so damn unhappy lately.
set my application on fire?
im reaching for the lighter already.
