i got krispy kremes, and i doubt you do.

that makes me really happy.

I FINALLY GET MY OWN KRISPY KREMES.

courtesy of my parents, or my awesome aunt rather, as they just returned from hongkong not too long ago,

i am a happy boy.

two brothers, and a car.

what do two brothers do with a car with a full tank of fuel on a saturday?

wake up late.

then head off for lunch, at some corner of telokblangah for some tasty tasty chicken rice. no regrets walking some 5 mins even after parking the car! (:

after lunch, deciding not to be couch potatoes like we usually are, we decided to use our new found energy from lunch to invest it in something more fruitful than staring at a radiating screen.

we went to help with guitar lessons in church, but before that, went to brasbasah to look at guitars for some of the new students, and had a good chat with alvin about awesome guitars. finally someone who knew alot about awesome acoustics.

and guitar lesson, lawl, 25? massive-incredibleness. i have never seen so many guitars in my life, besides the guitar orchestra performing, of course. and basically got relegated to rhythm-chair-tapper, but again, had a wonderful conversation with alvin about tao-geh! hahaha.

so after that, went out for dinner with my brother’s friends, and adjourned to my childhood haunt of the “tortoise macdonalds” to have a chat till late.

that’s what two brothers do with a car on a saturday.
gotta thank my dad for lending us the car while he enjoys himself in hongkong.

and dinner!

i made dinner for myself! OMG!

okay fine, it’s not really making dinner from scratch, more like pulling random scraps of leftovers in the recesses of my fridge, sticking them together, with some “proper” timing, and immaculate skill, and the almighty microwave VOILA! dinner.

leftover blackpepper chicken with cheese and tomayo sauce.

i might just be bothered to write out my recipe, for those are interested.
rest assured, it was a nice dinner.

: D

does anybody hear?

She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon’s ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She’s another two years older
And she’s three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even knows she’s going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can’t see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

He is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

this has got to be the most awesome casting crowns song ever.

wow, and i didn’t think my class could get any messier and complicated.

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oh right, 7 days.

totally refreshed(spiritually) after today’s service. awesome worship session,

playlist:
freetodance
godisgreat
atthefootofthecross(ashestobeauty)
hosanna(brookefraserunitedlive)
majesty(hereiam)
i’mheldbyyourlove

not to mention, i got to play for this service with undoubtedly the most professional and talented team in church, and for once i could really just worship and play.

it was refreshing.

and perhaps to sum it all up, the sermon really struck right to the core of my heart.

“many people tend to find significance from friendships and relationships, earthly feelings, to make us feel some self worth. and with this, we constantly overlook the one person which we’re most significant to. God.”

i sat in my chair dumbfounded. for those who know, i guess you will understand.

now that i’ve sorted my own thoughts and emotions out, with lotsa help from the great people around me, thank you all!

i just need one last thing to heal.

but for now,
take things one step at a time.

I’m held by Your love,
upheld by Your strength;
On Your shoulders You bore me,
by Your faith I stand;
Cherished by You, Lord,
treasured in Your sight;
So close to Your heart,
held firm in Your hands.
—
my room’s in a mess.

jealousy. pain. and apologies.

everything has been an eye-opener.
—

8days in japan with my band friends have changed me.
as well as everyone.

i’ve been too emotional.
that’s it.
i’ve just been unaware of the emotional turmoil within myself until then. and exploding uncontrollably like i did, did not help much at all.

for once i saw the destructive nature of jealousy, and experienced it firsthand, and worse still, my friends were the collateral damage.

i swear that i’ll never let jealousy run through my heart ever again.

i’ve hurt my closest friends and i do owe them a huge apology,

hsin-yu, zhanyi.
i am terribly sorry.
nothing i say will ever remove the hurt i’ve caused you two,
but i really want to set things straight.

and daryl.
i just want to say sorry that i overlooked the person that perhaps has been there the whole way for me, and that you talked the most sense into me.
i know that a million thanks would not do any justice,

but thank you daryl.

whatever it is now,
i promise each and everyone of you in the band,
this will never happen on my part,
ever again.

i sincerely apologise.

to my friends,
i am sorry.
—

the two weeks

band camps over,
lots of things happened.

bridges of differences formed
bridges of bonds tightened

that’s how i’d summarise camp,
and now,

let’s see where japan takes us.

—
to all my family and friends, do take care.

PS My brother seems to miss me! hahaha.

where is all this anger coming from.