jealousy. pain. and apologies.

everything has been an eye-opener.
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8days in japan with my band friends have changed me.
as well as everyone.

i’ve been too emotional.
that’s it.
i’ve just been unaware of the emotional turmoil within myself until then. and exploding uncontrollably like i did, did not help much at all.

for once i saw the destructive nature of jealousy, and experienced it firsthand, and worse still, my friends were the collateral damage.

i swear that i’ll never let jealousy run through my heart ever again.

i’ve hurt my closest friends and i do owe them a huge apology,

hsin-yu, zhanyi.
i am terribly sorry.
nothing i say will ever remove the hurt i’ve caused you two,
but i really want to set things straight.

and daryl.
i just want to say sorry that i overlooked the person that perhaps has been there the whole way for me, and that you talked the most sense into me.
i know that a million thanks would not do any justice,

but thank you daryl.

whatever it is now,
i promise each and everyone of you in the band,
this will never happen on my part,
ever again.

i sincerely apologise.

to my friends,
i am sorry.
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